A few things

This post is going to be a (probably a bit rambly) kind of laundry list of some of the things on my mind this morning. A few of these will eventually be posts of their own, but right now they’re still in that “not ready for prime time” stage (and I’m too tired to write about anything in a more in-depth way).

  1. My Neo Lana e-spinner arrived! Although she did get here completely undamaged, I have not yet been able to use her for more than a few minutes, because when I set her up I thought her drive band was too loose, so I trimmed and reattached it. (Most wheels now use polyurethane bands that can be resized using a lighter.) She spun along great for a few minutes and then the drive band snapped, and my attempts to repair it were unsuccessful (plus it was now too short). Part of the problem stemmed from my misunderstanding that she was not built to spin as quickly as her sister, the Vespera (the seller has an instructional video available for the Vespera, which is her non-bulky e-spinner, but none for the Neo Lana), so the band was probably just fine to begin with.  The seller (Jan at Heavenly Handspinning) is being really nice about it and sending me a new drive band for free, but in the meantime my brand new e-spinner is sitting here and I can’t use her–which is frustrating, to say the least. Here she is, though, in all her glory.  She comes “naked” (unfinished wood), so I still need to make up a batch of my carnauba wax furniture polish to protect her wood and do a consecration and naming ritual for her. (Yes, I name all of my tools; I’m an animist that way. My new camera is a Canon Powershot ELPH, so her name is Elfshot.)
    Her bobbins are enormous, so once I get her working and get up to speed working with her this is going to be a really great thing for FiberWytch. Right now, though, it’s mostly just frustrating that I can’t practice on her.
  2. I spent most of the day yesterday making Dixie cup fixed votives–so named because I’m using Dixie cups as the molds for these.  (The Dixie cups are the molds only; these do not ship in a container, but “naked” like regular votive candles.) This results in a candle that’s a bit wider and shorter than your typical votive candle, but should burn for about the same amount of time.
    dixie candles
    These candles are all fully fixed and consecrated with herbs, oils, and glitter, but (just as with the first batch of my mason jar candles) this is a Beta batch, so they are physically imperfect and I will be offering them at a discounted price.  Ultimately, these votives will be listed at $10 for two in my shop, but for this first batch I will be asking only $7 for two, plus shipping. In this batch, I have votives for Odin, Loki, Yggdrasil, Frigga, Freyja, Yule, and Ullr. (There will be some Hellenic deities in my next batch.) I will be listing these throughout the week, and will probably only post about it here once they’ve all been listed (which will take several days)–so, since the mason jar candles went VERY quickly, the best way to make sure you get first grabs on these is probably to keep an eye on my Etsy shop. (If you favorite the shop, my new listings will show up automatically in your Etsy feed.)
  3. I will be participating in NaNoWriMo this year–sort of.  I can’t afford to go whole hog with it, since my first priority needs to be getting (and keeping) the store stocked for the holidays, and since I also work a day job my time is limited. However, I want to put a book together on my own perspective and experience regarding spirit work. Much like similar books a few other spirit workers have published, it will largely consist of (possibly reworked) posts from this blog, with some new material added in.
  4. Speaking of which, I am currently reading Nornoriel’s book Walking Between Worlds: A Survival Guide to Life Touched by the Unseen, and even though I’m very far from being a new spirit worker (having been married to Odin since 2002 and practicing magic and witchcraft in various forms since around 1978–when I was all of 13) there are a lot of things in it that are both serving as useful reminders to me and kicking my ass a bit. I plan to do a book review after I finish it (I’m nearing the end at this point), and it will probably spark a few posts here as well (as will the trio of excellent posts Jo made over the weekend, especially Doing everything right and still failing; go read that if you missed it!). Probably most importantly, reading about Nono’s experiences with burnout have made me realize that I was in a period of burnout myself from early 2011-2013 or so (our first couple of years in the apartment where we live now, right after breaking off a couple of toxic friendships, and also right after having to re-home two of our cats in order to be able to move in here). This was the period of time in which I immersed myself almost completely in the fiber arts and took a big step back from active spirit work. I did not entirely drop my spiritual practice during this time period (I stayed married to Odin, obviously, although our relationship had some pretty severe rough patches and might not have survived if we hadn’t had such a long history together–and if He wasn’t determined to keep me no matter what, and I kept practicing seidhr and offering readings), but I was experiencing a constant low-level depression and I did need to begin distancing myself from some practices, ideas, and attitudes I had picked up from the former friends and from their general peer group, to sort out what was really me and what I had (inappropriately and unconsciously) absorbed or adopted from them, since they had been a big part of our spiritual lives for a few years. This is still an ongoing practice of continuing to examine things and strip away what isn’t really part of me and doesn’t serve me or my path, but 2014 has seen a huge uptick in my spiritual practice, with me finally embracing my own personal mythology and my primary spirit work Job, re-grounding myself in my love and trust for my Husband, and walking a path that is truly my own, not influenced by anyone else’s. I will probably have more to say on the whole burnout thing in future posts, and definitely in my spirit work book. Right now, the important thing for me is finally recognizing that I was burned out, and that I have moved on from it.
  5. In case you missed it, over the weekend I listed several new ritual cords designs: Self Love cords (for self esteem and pampering your inner child), Sweet Dreams Cords (for help in dream recall, dreamwork, and having pleasant dreams), and Winter Yggdrasil.  Three of the Winter Yggdrasil cords are still available, along with one each of the Self Love and Sweet Dreams cords, but (it being the time of year that it is) I expect them to go quickly, so if you need any of these, go take a look!


(© 2005 from Odhroerir: Nine Devotional Tales of Odin’s Journeys)

The black depths of the Well,
The chill embrace of its dark waters,
The Sight that no one wants and all men fear,
The knowledge that becomes a gaping chasm,
Separating the seer from kith and kin,
This You promised me, Odin.

The sweetness of the Mead,
The intoxication of golden honey,
The gift of inspiration teetering on the edge of madness,
The song of fire in the soul and spirit,
Threatening to burst all reason asunder,
This You promised me, Odin.

The torment of the Tree,
The hunger, the thirst, unending pain,
The symbols burned into flesh, blood, brain,
The secrets that have torn screams from a God,
Sacrificing comfort for candor,
This You promised me, Odin.

The terror of the storm,
The shrieking winds and cold, driving rain,
The madness of the Hunt, laying waste to all in its path,
The wild, fierce joy of the wolf,
Howling to herald the birth of life in death,
This You promised me, Odin.

The loneliness of the wanderer,
The isolation of the outcast,
The one who sells stories for food and drink,
The vagabond who earns his place by the fire,
Spinning tales to entrap the foolish and educate the wise,
This You promised me, Odin.

The warmth of Your embrace,
The electric thrill of Your arms around me,
The ecstasy of Your kiss that kills doubt and fear,
The sacrifice of body, heart, soul and mind,
Bright as spilled blood, on the altar of Your love,
This You promised me, Odin.

And the sanctuary I have found in Your arms
Is worth many times the trials and the tears,
The sweetness worth the sacrifices,
The tenderness worth every last torment.

My soul is mead for Your horn, Beloved,
My spirit bread to sate Your hunger.
Drink deep of me and I will be Your comfort;
All of the life, joy, light and hope within me
Is Yours to feast upon, to bring You strength.
This I promise You, Odin.

So you wanna be a godspouse? (some plain talk)

First, an announcement: as of today, January 1st 2013, I will no longer be available to answer either seidhr or divination questions along the lines of “Does Deity X (fill in the blank, but Loki and Odin are the usual suspects) want to marry me/sleep with me/date me?” or even, “What does Deity X want from me?” in which the unspoken subtext is, “Does He/She want to marry me?” Once again, any seidhr questions or reading requests that follow some variation on this pattern will be refused, and a link to this post given.

This includes any similar questions that I have already tentatively indicated I would try to respond to, as of this date.

The reasons for this decision are many, and frankly they include the preservation of my sanity, since in the past couple of months this has become the most popular variety of question sent my way, not only for seidhr but just randomly dropped in my inbox via email or Facebook, even after I had posted a notice in the sidebar of my blog, months ago now, that I would not be able to answer ANY free questions outside of my regular posted seidhr schedule. Even being in the midst of Yule, the holiest time of year for me, or days before my 10th anniversary in one instance, has not hindered people from doing this or prompted them to consider that perhaps they should wait, that perhaps their approaching me at such a time might be inconsiderate or disrespectful. It has seriously been annoying enough to make me consider putting my seidhr practice on hiaitus altogether for a bit, and I was set to do exactly that until I saw how many people I was able to help in unexpected ways during the Samhain and Yule sessions (this last being one of the primary reasons I began my oracular practice in the first place).

The root of the problem came out during a discussion with Jolene the other night, and was echoed by a recent comment someone else posted to my blog: entitlement. Too many people among the newest crop of would-be godspouses and spirit workers apparently feel somehow entitled to not only have the help and guidance of those who have been on this path for years, but to have it now, on demand, when they are ready and not when the other person is ready to help them (assuming there is such a time; please see further below for more on this). Believe me, I have been on the other end of this scenario, back when I was a baby godspouse myself; not only did I feel entitled to the advice and assistance of my elders, and not only did I actively pursue the same by (in a couple of instances) all but shoving my newfound status in their faces, but I got downright sulky and resentful when I was occasionally rebuffed. Looking back now, I am mortified by my own behavior. I can only hope the current aspirants can eventually grow beyond this attitude as well and be similarly ashamed someday, yet somehow I doubt that will happen, since our (i.e. American/Western European) culture as a whole also seems to have embraced wholeheartedly the doctrine of entitlement in general.

Ironically, my first reaction to the lack of support I received (I have written before about how few and far between access to either oracles or spirit workers of any kind was back then) was to want to help all of the new people who in turn eventually approached me, but at this point–when hardly a week passes in which I am not contacted by one or two new people wanting to make their existence known to me–I really need to take a big step back and acknowledge that the trend has gone too far, at least for me personally to want to continue to aid and abet it. To keep on as I have been doing would require truly becoming an interactive priestess in service to a human community, and that is outside the parameters of what Odin wants or expects from me at this time. To the extent that I act as His priestess in regard to other people, it is for the purpose of helping to educating people about Him and of promoting both His interests and those of my own little group of spirits. And towards that end, I will continue to share what I can about my path on my blog, including stuff about being a godspouse in more general terms, such as the remainder of this post. I will also be making “Ask me about Odin” a permanent and ongoing feature here, since I was unable to address the questions I received during the month of December. I will continue to provide some degree of pastoral counseling both during and after seidhr, and will be providing a suggested reading list on my blog for people hoping to go deeper into devotional work. (Which is, by the way, the gateway discipline for anyone hoping to progress to god-marriage.)

And so, in lieue of addressing your individual godspouse-related queries directly, here are a few rules aspiring godspouses may want to consider:

1. You cannot trick, coerce, bewitch, or otherwise force a deity into marrying you. (This should be a given for most people reading this, I hope, but one never knows, so we’ll go from here.)

2. Closely following upon the first point, it is a Bad Idea (with “bad” underscored multiple times) to decide that you would like to become a godspouse and then set about to find a god or goddess who might be interested in marrying you. If you are going to go about it in this way, you may as well ask the Ouija Board to send a suitor your way, because this is, in effect, exactly the sort of call you’re putting out. A deity marriage comes to pass as a result of 1) years of devotion on your part that naturally and gradually turn into something deeper and more intimate, or 2) a deity’s sudden decision to actively pursue and court you–which is, believe me, an obvious and undeniable state of events. If this happens to you there will be no need to consult a seidhrkona or reader; there will be no room for doubt left in your mind. The gods–especially the northern gods, the primary ones I am consulted about–are VERY capable of making their desires and intentions known along these lines, even to those who may consider themselves blocked or headblind. Besides speaking directly inside your head or through spirit workers, They can also communicate through dreams, natural signs (such as an animals or birds sacred to that deity suddenly stalking you everywhere), chance comments from strangers who have no idea what is going on, partially overheard conversations when out in public places, bibliomancy (open a book to a page at random, and there is your answer), random response generators such as the 8 Ball (you laugh, but I have seen it work), and unintentional oracles such as graffiti, street signs, or what song or show is playing when you turn the radio or TV on. And of course, runes or Tarot cards you draw for yourself in response to your question, in addition to divination systems such as the pendulum that yield a yes or no answer, can be added to this list. (If you know from experience that you can’t read for yourself get a friend to do it for you; it doesn’t necessarily have to be someone trained in spirit work.) The Gods are incredibly and endlessly resourceful and if They want you, YOU WILL KNOW IT. And They will not give up until you do. In most cases of serious courtship, a number of these signs will coincide.

As a codicil to this point, if you really feel you do need direct input via an oracle or other divination from a qualified spirit worker, ASK SOMEONE LIKELY TO BE IMPARTIAL. This is why I often prefer that people send me as little background as possible for seidhr questions. We are all human, and as much as I may want to give you an impartial answer, if I know that your question has to do with marriage to Odin (and believe me, you won’t be able to hide this one from me easily; also, after this announcement, if you try to pull a fast one on me anyway I promise I will never accept another question from you again) my own filters are very likely going to affect the answer somehow, for yay or nay. My best advice for this particular question would be to go to someone who has as little as possible to do with Odin, preferably someone from a different tradition entirely, and then pay for a reading, giving them as little information beforehand as you can.

3. Deity marriage is not something to be entered into because all of your friends are doing it and you feel left out, or because you think it might be a shortcut to being taken seriously among spirit workers. (It isn’t.) Neither is it something to pursue because you were reading a blog about it and it sounded cool. But if reading the above makes you feel desperately lonely, sad and forsaken, you may want to start a devotional practice; there is absolutely nothing wrong–and everything right–with deciding that you would like to get to know one of more of the Gods on a more direct, personal basis. You can’t force such a thing, but you certainly can put out the invitation, and devotional practice is the way to do this.

4. Deities who want to marry you–especially in the Northern Tradition–tend to approach you directly, rather than through a human or disembodied intermediary. They are not shy about these things. (See the list of possible communication methods above.) This is another reason why I am going to be stepping back from addressing these kinds of questions: you don’t need me–or anyone else, no matter how well intentioned–to run interference for you. As I have said before, I do not want to be the person standing between you and your God, and I would be a little suspicious of anyone who did wholeheartedly embrace such a role, frankly.

5. Generally speaking, deities do not force marriage on humans. Deity marriage is a devotional path, and every single godspouse I have ever met married their god for one reason only: they were so passionately in love with Him or Her that they couldn’t not do it. However…

6. Be aware that deity marriage is NOT a temporary path, to be put down again once you become bored with it and want to move onto other things, or once it becomes too inconvenient for you. If you give marriage vows to a deity and if those vows are accepted, the immense weight of the obligation you have assumed is taken very seriously not only by your Spouse and by the rest of the Gods but by the Norns too. It directly impacts your Wyrd, which is now entwined with that of the God in question. Like a human marriage–only more so–a deity marriage requires work, and although your Spouse will help you as much as They can a great deal of that work will be on your end. Like a human marriage, a deity marriage will transform your life, not only in the dreamy-blissful ways you’re envisioning but also in practical terms: your existing human relationships may fall apart under the strain of your new commitment and you may be called upon to endure hardships, loneliness and poverty for the sake of your Beloved. And unlike a human marriage, for its very existence a deity marriage requires that you remain open, constantly, to your divine Spouse. In practical terms, this means that every time you feel your heart begin to close against Them even the tiniest bit–through anger, complacency, disappointment, pain, or any other cause–you will need to willfully rip it open again in any way you can, once more offering Them the core of who you are, laid bare and bloodied before Them; and this is not something you will have to do once or twice but repeatedly, every time that wound begins to scab over again. “Does it hurt?” some of you will doubtless be wanting to ask me. To which I say, “Are you paying attention?” I’m not writing in code here but being as literal and explicit as possible, so you’re damn right it will hurt, like nothing you have ever experienced. But this raw openness allows your Beloved direct access to your heart–which is no longer, strictly speaking, yours but Theirs–and if you love Them, if you truly love Them, if your commitment was made cleanly and for all the right reasons, then the results of this painful process will be a source of unending joy for you that I cannot even begin to describe.

Okay, before I make divine marriage sound too idyllic (which is not the goal of this post, after all), we’ll take a step back and consider the topic of entitlement again.

A few points of etiquette (and “netiquette”) for aspiring godspouses:

1. No matter how loved and cherished you may be by your god, do not assume that you are automatically more important to Them than someone who has already devoted years of loving service to Them (in divine marriage or any other close capacity). Believe me, your god will not appreciate it if you approach such a devotee of Theirs making demands on their time or attention that the other person cannot afford or is for any reason unwilling to give you. Even in the case of high profile followers of your god, never assume that the person you are approaching owes you anything at all, and if they tell you that they do not have the time for you or just do not want to deal with you for whatever reason, take the hint and leave them alone. Along these same lines…

2. After sending off an initial email and not receiving a response, it is generally okay to send one more polite inquiry after waiting a few weeks or so (since emails do get lost in Cyberspace occasionally). After that, if you receive no response, assume that the other person does not want to or cannot deal with you at this time. (It may not even be a personal thing; you have no idea what may be going on in the other person’s life. If someone in their family is gravely ill or they are in the midst of a spiritual crisis themselves or they have just lost their home, imagine how much of a heel you’ll feel like when you later realize that you were pestering them in the midst of such a thing.) If you haven’t received a response and you’ve written twice, it is never okay to send a third email saying “I was wondering if you got my email.” You have just turned into a pest.

3. If someone with years more experience than you has been kind enough to correspond with you to offer some of their perspective or wisdom, do not assume that now you are good friends or pen pals and do not demand that they continue to write lengthy emails to you or confide their own secrets in you. Some will, and it is quite possible to make friends in this way. However, if they seem to be making an attempt to taper off their replies gracefully, allow them the room to do so; once again, this may not be a personal thing, and may not even mean that they do not like you. But do not assume that because they have written to you or helped you they are now your peer. (Or, worse, that you are now in a position to offer them advice, especially if its unsolicited.) And last but certainly not least…

4. Don’t assume that anyone else owes you the benefit of their experience or hard-won wisdom, either pertaining to this path or any other. People who have been on this path for a while, like myself, started out when there were very few people around to seek advice or guidance from. We learned the hard way, reading what we could here and there but mostly learning to listen, hard, to what our gods were telling us. We fell down, got our knees skinned, then picked ourselves up and kept going–and we did this over and over and over again. Some of us are a bit jealous of the knowledge we’ve won through our own pain and hard work, and some of us are of the opinion that this kind of wisdom can’t be spoon-fed anyway but must be fought and bled for by each individual who seeks it. (Consider Odin, who was taught by both His mother and His uncle Mimir when He was first starting out–and yet, that didn’t keep Him from needing to rip out one of His eyes, or hang on the Tree, to get where He wanted to go on His path.) Some of us believe we aren’t necessarily helping you by attempting to spoon-feed you these lessons, but only hindering and delaying the necessarily painful process of learning them for yourself.

If this sounds mean or harsh to you, consider that it takes big-time cojones to become a god spouse in the first place, to stand up before the world and say, “Yes, that’s right, Deity X loves me. Yes, I know I’m overweight, or not outstandingly pretty, or don’t have a college degree, or can’t sing on key, but the one thing I do know is that this particular God cherishes me and is passionately in love with me, so much so that He accepted me for His wife.” That takes not only balls but big brass ones, because the most common reaction–outside of your tight little circle of friends–is that the world will laugh in your face. However, declaring yourself is the easy part, and it is exactly those types of balls you are going to need to get through the lessons that will follow, that type of unshakable belief. In the end if you can’t manage to believe in your own worthiness (and I’ll tell you a secret: few of us can, when it comes to something of this magnitude), you will be asked to cling to the fact that your Beloved God tells you you are worthy, and that His or Her divine Word therefore makes it so. This is faith on a level that most human beings never have to wrestle with, and it takes not only balls to carry it off but plenty of muscle power, which you will build up gradually by working your way through lots of difficult lessons, endless testing, and plenty of hardship and self-discipline.

Ten years ago, when I first married Odin, one of the experienced people I had pestered told me, in a fit of pique, to come back and bother her again when I’d been on this path for a decade or longer. I haven’t taken her up on this, however I will say that I now appreciate where she was coming from, since I have observed that a good many of the people I have seen start out on this path are not around ten years, or even five years, later on. Whether or not you will be depends on how hard you are willing to work on your relationship, what you are willing to both give to it and give up for it, and not on whether you receive words of reassurance or guidance from a seer or from another godspouse. Validation is comforting, but it’s also overrated. In the end, it’s all up to you, and Them, really.

Time to unmask

So, as you may have noticed, it’s been a bit quiet around here. December hasn’t been going exactly as I expected. Turns out, I had one plan for the month I had decided to set aside as a special devotional month for Odin, and He had an entirely different plan altogether. Needless to say, since it is His month, His plan is winning.

“This is the month the bullshit stops,” He told me on our anniversary eve–or words to that effect. “I have earned your trust–I have more than earned it–and I will have it. It is time for the training wheels to come off.” And I had thought He did have it, I had thought I’d long since given it to Him, but once I actually did, once I surrendered that last little bit of doubt I had been stubbornly clinging to, the doubt that kept me circling the same little cluster of issues again and again–once I did that, the floodgates opened, and it was like I could suddenly see everything with new eyes. Things that I had thought were so important suddenly simply weren’t. Things that I hadn’t given enough attention to became vital. With His help, I have been poking at my comfort zones, one by one, and uncovering some things about Him, myself, and the Work that I had apparently been blocking for a while now. I’ve been challenging my illusions to find and shatter any last boundaries remaining between Him and me, because I would rather face a thousand uncomfortable truths than have anything stand between us. I have found a few places where walls I had foolishly erected readily tumbled down to rubble at the lightest touch, and others where the assurances He had given me long ago, which I expected to crumble, were impregnable as bedrock. The Hunt season is when illusions are stripped away to the bare bone, when even Grimnir Himself unmasks. The guising and revelry goes on throughout the evening, the orchestra plays on, but at midnight the music stops, the guests reveal themselves, and you see Who you’ve really been dancing with. And even if you’ve had a pretty good idea all along, there are always some surprises.

And so, I’ve been spending most of my time offline this past week, and instead of working on devotional crafting projects, or posting to my blog, I’ve been spending lots of time with my Husband–meditating, doing uti seta and breath work, pathwalking, reading runes, writing letters to Him in a special little notebook, writing posts and partial posts that may or may not ever be posted, and just in general being enthralled by Him. The post ideas have been coming faster than I can keep up with them–and I will be answering your “Ask me about Odin” questions, I promise!–but some of the material that’s been coming to me will be saved for my book. Spending less time online, cutting down on the barrage of words and images that I normally ingest in large quantities from the internet, makes it so much easier to hear and interact with the spirits, not only my Husband but the others as well. It looks like I will have to start limiting my online time in the future, from now on. There will be some other changes too, though it’s too soon to speak of them. But at any rate, Odin’s idea of December was to use it as a kind of reset button, not a time for me to do all of these extraordinary devotional activities but for me to prepare for the challenges of the next ten years of my extraordinary devotional life, in which the training wheels will be off, and I will begin the Work ahead of me with renewed vision, insight and clarity.

There will be a lot–a LOT–of new stuff (in terms of Work, writing, crafts, everything) coming down the pike in the new year, and I’m gearing up to be ready for it.

Seidhr for Yule is still set for the 16th, and although I am almost ready to close the session I still have room for two or three more questions.

The Darkest Month

As if seen through the wrong end of a telescope, blurred and dimmed around the edges, the darkness of December beckons as November draws to its end.  For the general non-pagan public in America, December is the brightest month of the year, a gleeful blending of commercialism, family ties, and food comas.  For many (if not most) pagans, it is a conundrum of sorts,  a season when non-pagan family obligations directly or indirectly conflict with the allure of like-minded spiritual gatherings.  Historically, for Europeans throughout the middle ages, especially in northern Europe, it was a time of gathering the family tightly together against the outer cold, of taking in travelers and guests with generosity but caution (for who knew what–or Who–might be wandering out there in the freezing gusts, hobnobbing with the trolls), for lavishly feasting the gods–pagan or Christian, depending on the time and the setting–and the dead, but at a careful distance, ever mindful that the next hand on one’s doorknob might not be a human one, that the skeletal scraping against windows might not be the branches of dead trees, that the dead walk this time of year, and that things and People far more dire walk alongside them–or worse, fly through the stormy night skies–keeping careful count of debts accrued throughout the year passed, and demanding Their due.

For me, as for my spiritual ancestors, December is the darkest month of the year, with the traditional twelve days of Yule–the “smudging nights,” so called in folklore because you had better be smudging your home with protective herbs against the wild spirits that roamed the long nights–beckoning at its black heart.  It is the most precious month of the year for me–for it was in this month that I took sacred marriage vows to my Husband, Odin, that darkest of gods, at this darkest of times.  But it is also the most dreadful month.  It is a time when the air is filled with ghosts and the trolls spill upwards through the cracks in the earth, freed from their underground lairs to walk among humans.

For me it is, beyond all else, Odin’s month–although that is certainly not limited to December.  Although I feel and honor Him equally, yet somewhat differently, throughout the other seasons of the year, during the period of late September through the beginning of January we see His darkest face, the face of Yggr (the Terrible One) who sacrificed Himself on the World Tree, the face of Wilde Jaeger (the Wild Hunter) who rides His flame-eyed steed at the head of the Furious Host.  Perhaps I am biased, but although I do have special festival days throughout the year for Him, and especially in late September through November, for me December is all about Odin, from beginning to end, even though several of the actual festival days within it are goddess-focused.

Continue reading over at my PaganSquare blog…

An addendum to my “Ask me about Odin” post

English: "Odhin" (1901) by Johannes ...

English: “Odhin” (1901) by Johannes Gehrts. The god Odin sits enthroned, flanked by his ravens Huginn and Munnin, and the wolves Geri and Freki. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

It bothers me that my invitation to send me questions about my Beloved throughout the month of December ended up sounding very lore-heavy; I didn’t intend it that way.  As readers of this blog are surely aware, my own life and practice are not constrained by the lore (although I have “put in my time” studying it, so to speak, and continue to do so), and I certainly wouldn’t expect anyone else’s to be!

So, although a lot of this would come under the category #4 mentioned in that post, I just wanted to add that it’s perfectly acceptable–and encouraged–to send me requests for more information on my own practice, as well as my interpretations and thoughts on various aspects of the nature and modern worship of this infinitely complex god whom I (and so many readers of this blog I’m sure!) so adore.

For example, you could ask me:

“How do YOU believe Odin actually learned seidhr?”

“How has being married to Odin changed your life?”

“What daily devotions do you practice for Him?”

“What are your favorite Odin-flavored books/songs/movies (beyond the basic lore stuff)?”

And so on, etc.

Once again, I am more than happy to give you answers based on my own experiences, opinions, and UPG in my ten years of being married to Him and thirty years prior to that of having Him always hovering on the periphery of my life–as long as the questions are not too deeply personal.  I’m also happy to give advice on how to deepen your own relationship with Him/understanding of Him in a general way that does not cross the boundary into speaking about your own particular situation.

Beyond this, one assignment He has given me for the month of December is to reread some of my old spiritual journals, going back to the year of our marriage, and I may share some excerpts from those here if they are especially significant.  Also, I will be sharing some of my musical playlists for Him in addition to recipes, anecdotes, my collection of Odin artwork both digital and physical, and more!  So, don’t be scared; send me those questions!