So very much of my spiritual life has been built around the concept of choices, of choosing–not surprisingly, considering that Odin’s Handmaidens, the Valkyries, are called Choosers. The act of choosing, of cutting off some options and setting in motion others, is an almost godlike power, and a recurring theme with Odin. Recently, as the temperatures begin to cool and the autumn–my busiest time of year, spiritually–looms, He is calling on me to once again examine how I am spending my time, where my focus is, how my energies are spent–and to make choices.
For a good part of the past year, a lot of my time and energy has gone into my yarn Etsy store. Now, this is not in and of itself a bad thing. I learned to spin in the past year, and I enjoy it and am not about to stop doing it, especially since it has a very real spiritual dimension for me, with its connections to Frigga and to the Norns and the working of Wyrd. There are also other crafts I want to continue doing, most of them with spiritual applications (such as the spirit dolls, some more crocheted jewelry, and some botanical formulations) that I want to explore further, and let’s face it, I will always probably be making more of this stuff than I can use myself, so I will always need an outlet for selling them. Offering them for sale also opens up the possibility that they can be partially self-funding hobbies, instead of simply very expensive hobbies.
On the other hand, it takes a LOT of time to photography items and post them to the store (I have five or six skeins right now that I’ve been putting off posting), and then there’s all the marketing stuff, which would really eat up as much time as you’d care to put into it. And while I’d love to be making my living from crafts, that doesn’t seem likely to happen anytime soon, at least while I’m still working full time, and even if I worked part time or not at all I would have to spin a LOT of skeins per week for it to equal what I’m bringing home from my customer service job. Not that I’m giving up hope on someday being the focus of one of those Etsy “Quit your day job” articles, but in the fiber arts world this kind of thing takes time. You have to become known, your skeins have to become coveted, and then you can command the prices someone like Pluckyfluff or Ashley Martineau commands, in addition to earning money from teaching and such.
In the meantime though, the amount of time I’m putting into trying to make my fiber store successful is not supportable. I don’t have the time or energy to do absolutely everything, and put simply, my life is supposed to be about being Odin’s wife, rather than about being a merchant. It’s time to step back a bit, become less driven and less desperate about my business, and allow it to develop organically….which is the only way it’s going to develop, anyway.
This will open up, most importantly, more time to spend with Him, be with Him . It will make more time for my spiritual studies, for trance work, and for getting my health and stamina in shape for the Yule/Wild Hunt season that’s just around the corner. And it will even make more time for the other crafts I’ve been wanting to explore or revisit. One offshoot of the latter is that I’m planning to start a second Etsy store, a new shop for spirit work-related crafts and botanicals. It won’t be something that I really push, or even advertise outside of this blog, but as I said, I can’t possibly use everything I make.